2 weeks post birth

I just can't believe how much better I feel.  I feel normal.  The birthing pains have been long gone.  I still deal with hemroids- not that I want to admit it but lets be honest here.  My bleeding stopped for a full 12 hours recently but then returned some... but has not been bad at all.  I wonder if it is so good because of the Arnica I took the early days.  I don't know... but is a thought.  I have noticed that one half of my belly is more stretched than the other- left side- I assume due to that is where she camped out the last trimester- on my left side.  It really has nothing to do with birth but is something I find very interesting.

I had a great follow up appointment with my midwife and doula, separately.  It was great to discuss and process the birth with my doula.  She focuses more on the emotional side of things than my midwife does and I appreciate that.  She could share with me some personal experiences she had with an intense birth and how she processed it.  I felt a lot better about the birth after she left and had more pride in what I had done- pushed this baby out safely when so many had no faith that I could.  I think it will be a while for me to process things fully.

I am enjoying my little girl- the little girl I always dreamed of having.  My family is beautiful and I am so blessed.  I have to keep reminding myself that it is through God that all this came to be.  I could not have done this without Him and he stood tall to support me.  I can't loose sight of that but need to give Him all the credit.